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“I am going to try and time the market”

What this really means is “I am going to totally guess”

Here is the truth of the matter.

“The hopes were that this IMF/German bailout would be the rescue for Greece and the euro currency. But if you look at credit spreads, that’s clearly not the case,” said Michael Pento, senior market strategist at Delta Global Advisors. “I think this reminds me too much of the summer of 2007 when we first saw the Bear Stearns hedge funds collapse. I think this is the first salvo of a metastasizing sovereign debt crisis that will spread,” also saying the contagion could go beyond Europe and into Asia and the U.S.

“It’s a very real crisis,” he said. “I’m afraid over the next few years here it’s going to come to America. And I guarantee you this — there is no IMF bailout coming to the U.S.”

Overseas, Hong Kong’s Hang Seng lost 1% while Japan’s Nikkei shed 3.3%. The FTSE in London fell 1.5% and the DAX in Frankfurt was lost 0.8%.

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DOW FALLS ALMOST 1,000, THEN REBOUNDS

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So as the world starts its rapid plunge into the reality that does exist, all I can say is “Good luck!”

From it’s vantage, Anxiety attacks!

Lately I have been writing short stories and posting them online.

Why?

My family has always liked my stories. And I grew up in a no bull-shitin’ family. If it was good, it was good. And if it was bad, well it was bad. Plus, I have a hard time connecting with my Mom. I think we are just too alike. So because I enjoy writing and feel that I have a knack for it, I have taken to putting thoughts on digital paper again. To say “I love you” to those I have a hard time saying it to. And as a simple, yet effective therapy.

Really? Therapy?

Well, yeah. Writing is therapy for my mind as it is caught in Anxiety’s web. And the more thrashing my mind does, the more it becomes entangled.  Anxiety that is based on wanting to control and keep safe. An impossible goal. Which is something that I have always struggled with. The wanting to hold on, the desire to keep and protect. But after death entered my world, my mind was left split. It still wanted to love and shelter those around it, but it now knew that it never could. That life would do what life wills.

And here enters the anxiety attacks. And please understand something, I am an insanely logical person. I analyze data and build structures for a living. So if you were to ask my opinion on anxiety attacks pre cataclysm, I would have arrogantly said.

“People need to get their shit together” and would have believed it too.

Where I find myself now, is in a pretty humbled place. I understand with authority that the mind is insanely powerful. That it is beyond our comprehension and may always be. That grief and fear can turn physical, and some of us now must work hard to not allow it to do so.

Sounds insane? Yeah maybe, but it is real. No doubt it is as real as anything in this world.

To reference what I wrote above, writing takes my mind off the web of control. It stops the fear with the understanding of the following.

-No matter how much I want to keep my loved ones safe, I can only do so much
-The web can’t hold me if it is not recognized
-I have to do what everyone else does, and let it go

Writing helps me let go.

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